02:32 AM 10-04-2025
i always felt like i missed the opportunity to do the right thing at the right time. this idea was always there somewhere far behind in my head, holding ground very strongly. i'm 25. do i feel old? yes, 100%.
but there's nothing stopping me from living the life i always wished for. it's ridiculously stupid that there's nothing stopping me but i'm still in the feeling that i missed the train. there's no train to miss. the mosquitoes are really pissing me off now. the point is that there's no point. not in the sense that there's no point in trying. but in the sense that there's no point worrying about anything at all. be like Krishna. we all say ignorance is bliss. and i feel that there's definitely some truth to that. i see a dog resting in the shade at 8 in the morning and then i walk past it on my way to attend a class that i have no interest but i'm simply attending because i need to maintain my attendance. ok. ignorance is bliss. but knowing isn't supposed to be regretful just because you can imagine a greatness you can never achieve. any greatness ever imagined only mattered because they were turned into reality. everybody imagines. everybody lost something. and it doesn't mean anything. don't take any lesson from that. you just live your life.
कर्मण्येवाधिकारस्ते मा फलेषु कदाचन।
मा कर्मफलहेतुर्भूर्मा ते सङ्गोऽस्त्वकर्मणि॥
You have the right to work only but never to its fruits. Let not the fruits of action be your motive, nor let your attachment be to inaction.